After my mother's death one thing is for sure that I have lost my unconditional support forever no one is going to support like she did, either way if I am wrong or right she was the only one who supports me and gives me courage no matter what, even on her deathbed she was continuously worrying about me that I might feel uncomfortable or in pain, although her cancerous pain was so much greater than my pain, but still she felt my little pain in head and was worried about me, now due to extreme changes in weather I am feeling strange kind of muscles pain but no one is here who could sympathized with me only I know and my Allah knows
After her it's like I am all alone fighting for myself, without any barrier her dua's were the only barrier I had, but now every single thing scare the hell out me, only thing I can do for her now is Dua

اللَّهمَّ أَمَتِكَ وَبنت أَمَتِكَ، اِحْتَاجَ إِلَى رَحْمَتِكَ، وَأَنْتَ غَنِيٌّ عَنْ عَذَابِهِا، إِنْ كَانَ مُحْسِنا ً فَزِدْ فِي حَسَنَاتِها، وَإِنْ كَانَ مُسِيْئا ً فَتَجَاوَزْ عَنْها

‘O Allah, Your maidservant and the daughter of Your maidservant is in need of Your mercy and You are without need of her punishment. If she was righteous then increase her reward and if she was wicked then look over her sins.’